It is unbelievable how many times one can continually mess up the exact same thing. For me, I continually tend to miss appointments. It is starting to get to me a little, I am unsure if I am just that bad at keeping track of my stuff, or is my workload too hard to balance. It is always around the time of midterms and finals that I start to fall apart. This recent episode of WTF! hit me today because I missed a fitness Q&A seminar in which I would of been one of the panelists. I was excited and nervous about being able to be a voice in the field and get experience publicly speaking about what I love. By excitement quickly turned into embarrassment, as I forgot I had to go, and got to the Q&A 40 minutes late. At this point I was too embarrassed to go inside and take my seat on the panel as I was afraid people would look at me and say that I am unprofessional and immature and that I may of not been taken seriously. Also Being I was late for a terrible reason, I thought that my peers may of looked down on me as well. So I began trying to avoid everyone that I knew was running the Q&A until I was finally able to sit and chat with my friend Eugene, the man who asked me to be a panelist. Upon talking to him it eased my mind a bit. He took it very lightly and told me to not worry about it. He understood that its hard to be a student and balance other stuff. He knows just as well as I do, because he is a pre-med student, and just like me, he missed some meetings he needed to attend because he forgot.
I know my workload is hard and it's easy to get off track. But there is no excuse for me to miss an appointment I made, especially when I remember the night before. It is something that I will continue to work on getting better at. And I am glad this mistakes have happened when they don't come crashing down on me. But maybe that is what I need to make a change. As hard as I am on myself when it happens, maybe I need something bad to happen to wake me from this sleep walk I find myself in.
Well, there is a solution to every problem. And let me just say, from someone who forgets A LOT of shit, this kind of stuff happens. It's unavoidable, especially for people such as yourself who has a schedule that is always changing. There are a lot of things going on in your life that can easily distract from your appointments- such as other appointments!
ReplyDeleteYou really need to just find a more organized way of doing things. As I had suggested earlier in the day, why don't you try downloading an app on your phone where you can keep track of your appointments and be alerted at a specific time to remind yourself of them so you can avoid this stressful mess. It may even help your tardiness. >wink wink<
I also feel that you should allot yourself some time to just veg out. I mean, when you hang out with me I always hope that it somewhat relaxes you from your hectic life outside of our time together. I'm not quite sure what you did this morning when you left work (I assume that you were home since you were creating this blog and such) but it seems as if you might be subconsciously looking for ways of getting out of responsibilities- even if it is only for a moment.
You always tell me that my body needs to rest sometimes- try taking your own advice and acknowledge that your mind needs to rest. You might not necessarily have to physically rest but you need to turn your brain off and just enjoy yourself. Since you are no longer working that other job you should have some kind of time in the day to sit down and take note of what you need to get done for the rest of the week. I know that you already do that but maybe if you keep it going every week at a specific time it will just become a routine and you won't ever forget things like this again.
Also, please remember that I am always here for you kid. If you need some help remember what your schedule is for the week- tell me about it. I will fuckin write everything down for you if I have to. Kind of like a little personal assistant. :D To be honest, I knew that there was something that was supposed to happen today but I couldn't put my finger on what it was and the outcome was not exactly the best. lol
So please, again, remember that ya have a girl now and she really, really would love to help you out as much as she can because sometimes ya just need a hand. ;)