There were once days where I was productive, feeling accomplishment with every day in and out. Now its just wasted time. I could be doing much more with myself, but mentally I can not.
I need to get my shit in gear, get away from the same old ruts, the same stupid problem. Learn to think outside the box, and outside my mind. Its way to one tracked and it causes problems. At work and at home.
Once I think about one thing no matter what it is, it is all that is in my mind at that time. There are no other thoughts about anything else.
This may be a blessing, but at the same time it is a disease.
When will I learn how to think and become less forgetful.
When will I wake up and continue to grow as an individual.... as a person.
Without school disciplining myself and my mind, what will now. How will I grow into a better person who is more in tune with himself. Not just to get better with school and work, but for her as well.
It is this very thing that makes her feel distant from me, but there is no way I can fix it.
Not at this time.... Not until I reach that next level.
There is tremendous amounts of potential in me, and I need to someway break it loose.
Enough if wasting my time!
or is it just more talk... or will I do it?
I don't understand why you are mentally incapable of doing more with yourself? Is it because you have gotten into a lazy mode and do not want to push yourself beyond a point that you need to right now? Multitasking is key in this case for you. Once you get the hang of doing more than one thing at once then you should be able to trick your mind into focusing on more than one thing at once as well.
ReplyDeleteForm habits. Learn how you work. You forget things. Dates, appointments, introducing me to people... (haha- I'm just teasing ya)- so now it is time to find a solution to that problem. Don't be too sluggish to make more of an effort.
So, solution time: use all of the means that you have. You own a phone (in a couple of hours it will be a new and improved phone) there is a calendar in it- USE IT. Find an application if you have to that will even further keep track of your schedule- your job relies on it. A calendar with a very distinct alarm would be best. Then there should be no reason why you are forgetting anything. Let me help you! You know that you have potential- now we just have to figure out a way to use it. Also, keep updating the damn dry erase board in your room; get a larger calendar if you have to. Use me. Do you want me to keep a record of your schedule for you to when you forget things I can try and remind you of them? I will do that for you. I do not mind.
Just in case you were unaware of this little fact that I am going to share with you, not only can a girlfriend be useful for things like sex, love, passion, companionship, trust, good times, etc.- but we are also here to help. HI! YOUR GIRLFRIEND IS GOOD AT KEEPING TRACKS OF THINGS! Tada! Ask me for help silly! Maybe if you try to take my advice it will really help you. Maybe you need to change the way you do things? We can talk about it. We can make shit happen.
Now, onto a lighter note, may I just say that you are wonderful? Yes, you may have trouble remembering things and there are things that you would like to improve about yourself- but don't realize that the mere fact that you acknowledge and yearn to grow as an individual makes you the biggest person of all? It takes a lot for a person to understand what flaws they have. Not only are you trying to figure out what your problems are- you would like to fix them! That is incredible (especially for a man). I have told you several times that most of the guys our age that I know are not men. But you, you are. There are things that you need to get in line and you are trying to learn. Joe, seriously, this is one of the biggest reasons why I love you so much. I think you are an amazing person, especially because you always want to better yourself. Its rare to see in a person and I admire you for it.